Headlights Eminem, Nate Ruess

[00:13.04] Mom, I know I let you down
[00:18.56] And though you say the days are happy
[00:22.01] Why is the power off and I'm fucked up?
[00:25.56] And, mom, I know he's not around
[00:31.78] But don't you place the blame on me
[00:35.26] As you pour yourself another drink, yeah
[00:39.46] I guess we are who we are
[00:45.74] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
[00:52.54] Maybe we took this too far
[00:58.30] I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who, what I said hurt
[01:02.08] In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst
[01:04.55] The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?
[01:08.09] "Cleanin' Out My Closet" and all them other songs
[01:10.03] But regardless, I don't hate you 'cause, Ma
[01:12.28] You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my Ma
[01:15.01] Though far be it from you to be calm
[01:16.86] Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm
[01:18.75] And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb
[01:21.26] Equivalent to chemical warfare
[01:22.72] And forever we could drag this on and on
[01:25.05] But agree to disagree, that gift for me
[01:27.83] Up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me
[01:29.72] You're kickin' me out? It's 15 degrees
[01:31.54] And it's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave"
[01:33.20] Ma, let me grab my fucking coat
[01:35.00] Anything to have each other's goats
[01:36.51] Why we always at each other's throats?
[01:38.32] Especially when Dad, he fucked us both
[01:40.23] We're in the same fuckin' boat
[01:41.89] You'd think that'd make us close (Nope)
[01:43.58] Further away it drove us, but together, headlights shine
[01:46.37] And a car full of belongings, still got a ways to go
[01:48.85] Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road
[01:50.80] And I was the man of the house, the oldest
[01:52.53] So my shoulders carried the weight of the load
[01:55.24] Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old
[01:57.76] And that's when I realized you were sick
[01:59.79] And it wasn't fixable or changeable
[02:01.88] And to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though, but
[02:04.70] I guess we are who we are
[02:10.79] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
[02:17.86] Maybe we took this too far
[02:24.54] 'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though
[02:27.79] 'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow
[02:30.79] But I'm sorry, momma, for "Cleanin' Out My Closet"
[02:33.03] At the time I was angry, rightfully? Maybe so
[02:35.30] Never meant that far to take it though
[02:36.86] 'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not makin' jokes
[02:40.59] That song I no longer play at shows
[02:42.27] And I cringe every time it's on the radio
[02:44.79] And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
[02:46.84] And all the medicine you fed us and
[02:48.30] How I just wanted you to taste your own
[02:50.21] But now the medication's takin' over
[02:52.79] And your mental state's deterioratin' slow
[02:55.01] And I'm way too old to cry, the shit is painful though
[02:57.22] But, Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo
[03:00.00] All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
[03:03.23] Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours
[03:06.85] But I love you, Debbie Mathers
[03:08.30] Oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause
[03:10.02] One thing I never asked was
[03:11.82] Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
[03:13.55] Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address
[03:16.52] But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
[03:20.06] Owned a collection of maps
[03:21.20] And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
[03:23.29] If someone ever moved 'em from me
[03:25.05] That you coulda bet your asses
[03:26.78] If I had to come down the chimney, dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em
[03:29.89] And although one has only met their grandma once
[03:32.85] You pulled up in our drive one night
[03:34.34] As we were leavin' to get some hamburgers
[03:36.24] Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
[03:38.84] And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness
[03:42.04] Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and
[03:45.38] I saw your headlights as I looked back
[03:47.34] And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to
[03:49.21] Thank you for being my mom and my dad
[03:51.57] So, mom, please accept this as a
[03:53.32] Tribute, I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to
[03:55.52] Get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to
[03:58.04] Lay it 'fore I'm dead, the stewardess said to fasten
[04:00.56] My seatbelt, I guess we're crashin'
[04:03.07] So, if I'm not dreamin', I hope you get this message that
[04:06.39] I will always love you from afar, 'cause you're my mom
[04:09.08] I guess we are who we are
[04:15.02] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
[04:22.23] Maybe we took this too far
[04:26.58] I want a new life (Start over)
[04:29.78] One without a cause (Clean slate)
[04:32.61] So I'm coming home tonight (Yeah)
[04:35.90] Well, no matter what the cost
[04:39.46] And if the plane goes down
[04:42.53] Or if the crew can't wake me up
[04:45.77] Well, just know that I'm alright
[04:49.22] I was not afraid to die
[04:52.85] Oh, even if there's songs to sing
[04:56.05] Well, my children will carry me
[04:59.19] Just know that I'm alright
[05:02.28] I was not afraid to die
[05:05.47] Because I put my faith in my little girls
[05:08.98] So I'll never say goodbye cruel world
[05:12.16] Just know that I'm alright
[05:15.13] I am not afraid to die
[05:21.02] I guess we are who we are
[05:27.55] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
[05:34.24] Maybe we took this too far
[05:38.59] I want a new life
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